CRAZY ON COMICS: June 2012

Friday, June 29, 2012

Comics Kink:Defeated and Prone

"These are a few of my favorite things...."

Ka-Zar, broken down and manhandled, deftly
depicted by Hall & Gil?

(Okay, this is one of those awesome mash-ups from
www.braveandboldlost.blogspot.com ,
but the prone Bats image is still apt!)

Mmmn..look at the arch of that extended arm and chest!

Down on your knees, big man!

K.O-ed, helpless, doll-like ...by a shirtless,
masked executioner no less! Score!

Love the tattered outfit effect as a trophy
of a harrowing battle survived!

Again with the mash-ups, but that svelte, lithe
motionless Hal is HOT!

Look at the spread on big, beefy Bane as Bruce
exacts revenge! Pure primal drama!

J'onn in agony!

Nobody does muscle tone like Jose' Luis
Garcia Lopez!

meh. Here's a toss-out for the straight-boys and lesbians.
(I loved the issue, anyway; got a thing for miniatures, too!)

Ooh, splayed out...by military, no less! Bonus!

Love that helpless pose...must be Cardy with that
sexy goodness!

This position definitely qualifies as vulnerable!

And the original...with a beaten, defeated, and definitely
prone Bats. Bane could have had his way with him!
What a waste!

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Thursday, June 28, 2012

The Inescapable, Yet Irretrievable Past

When I was about 9 years old (circa 1979,)

I won the cash prize raffle at our school,

the Boys Academy of the Holy Names.

It was the first of any kind of prize I had won,

and since it was a whopping $ 250,

I was a little blown away.

My own thoughts were that I should have been

able to spend all that money at once,

on whatever I wanted.

Not an unlikely assumption, really, since
fiscal restraint and parental involvement were

nonexistent on the homefront!

But alas, most was spent on necessities

and a savings account, although I did get

to spend a nice little chunk at Lionel Play World

in Tampa. What little I had, proportionately

speaking, went quite a long way in those days.

I can still vividly recall the excitement

of ripping open every Mego doll's plastic bubble

from its cardborad backing, placing the figure

next to me in the vehicle and stashing the trash

back in the giant hefty-bag-sized store bag,

remniscent of Santa's satchel.

I methodically acquainted myself with each figure,

relating him or her to their comic book

histories or TV appearances, recalling the good times

we had (virtually) spent together.

As a lonely, isolated, overweight, closeted kid

in a house with no love (but plenty of rage

and secrets,) my love of comics and its characters

were more than mere hobby or pass-time...

they were lifeline.

I pored over the books, played with those toys

endlessly, breathlessly, deriving my only joy

and feeling my only connection.

It was one place I felt safe, understood,

and even a sense of belonging.

Imagination was my best friend.

Once, in an effort to break me cold turkey

of my love of comics, my parents had gone into my room
while I was away (at around age 6)

and taken every last comic, bagged them in garbage

bags, and hidden them.

I only found this out later;

at the time they told me they had been donated.

I was devastated. The empty room felt as though

my insides had been violated. A theft of more

than just colored pages and super hero passions,

but rather my safety zone, my support system.

Again at age 10, the thought was that I was

getting too old for these particular childish fantasties and

obsessions, and after a fight between the parental units,
Mom appeared once more with large black
trash bags, this time making me assist the process.

Anything that was missing a piece, broken, or
marred in the least was discarded. From the closet

of a 10-year-old boy, that's pretty much everything.

I felt the rip of each toy and all its hours of

pleasant memories as they were unceremoniously
stuffed into the bags. Part of me understood

the psychology of what they were doing;
that they wanted to have a little boy like everyone

else's little boy, and I wished I could have articulated

that this was doing more harm than good....

That I wasn't going to change who I was, but
this assault would take away the joy that I did have.

I sat crestfallen, devastated once more in my emptied-out room,

now pure and devoid of all vacuous childhood notions

and fun. It confounded me a bit, to think there was an association

with being worn, and not having any value. I would have
played with my toys and comics until they disintegrated.

Condition meant nothing to me; they were counseling
tools, not collectibles.

But mother in particular liked things to look nice,
to have their 'place,' to be pristine. Her OCD

was beginning in earnest then.

(This entire incident also had a negative imprint on my

psyche as evidenced in later years;

Mom's perfectionistic tendencies led to my purges
to clear out my home of 'clutter' in earnest waves of mania.
In rebellion, I have given way to a pack-rat mentality,
a gypsy-like need to recycle everything, saving and even
acquiring items long past the point of having any value left.)

The 'rents--as I always referred to my parents, until later

by virtue of remedial Latin, when I started calling them

'Matroid' and 'Patroid', and later still in the final phase of

contemptuous dissent, simply by their first names--were

not my favorite people.

These items were not just casual purchases...they
were emotional investments. The iconic characters were my
substitute friends...talsimen of psychological relief from
countless past and then-present abuses.
Tonic for soothing, medicinal use.

Each item was treasured and adored for the positive

reflection that holding it and reexperiencing it gave me,

recalling the cherished support and distraction previously

given me from my war-torn childhood.

The serial nature of the comic tales, and long histories of the

characters gave a knowable nature, a consistency
and dependability that was lacking at home.

Later efforts to undo my 'unsuitable' and 'non-boy-like'
tendencies related to toys and comics (including no longer buying
me certain types, giving more away, selling them at yard sales,
storing them in the unreachable attic, etc) never deterred
my interest in fantasy and comics. If anything,

it solidified my resolve to regain the forbidden fruit.